I never had the chance to know any of my grandparents. They all passed away before I was born. And so I looked forward to the day my mother would meet my children, but then she passed away before I could even think about the idea of having kids. Dad soon followed. But John’s parents are still here. My boys get to know them.
So Sunday afternoon, John’s mom held and rocked Zach while John packed the car. I brought the carseat over to her to put Zach in. He had fallen fast asleep in her arms, which was pretty much where he spent the whole 4 days we were down there, anyway. She seemed sad to have to put him in his carseat, and held him up for her husband to kiss on the top of his little head. It seemed so….final. We were leaving Evan down there to spend a couple of weeks, but Zach had to come home. He is just too young. I honestly felt like I was taking him away from her.
So I held it in. But once we started to pull away from her house, to back out of the driveway, I started to sob. John’s mother and I have certainly had our differences over the past decade, but she has always been a shining example of what I always envisioned a grandparent to be. Is our staying so far away going to prevent her from being close to Zach like she has been close to Evan?
We were going to leave her house to go to John’s dad’s house to drop off clothes for Evan. He will be down there for a little while, alternating between staying with John’s dad, John’s mom’s and stepfather’s, and John’s sister’s. He gets to have a blast with all of them. I am so appreciative and value that more than anyone can know. But as we are pulling away,and the tears were flowing, here comes John’s dad on one of his motorcycles. And Evan is on the back. After I got over the first thought of “OH MY GOD MY BABY IS ON A MOTORCYCLE!!!!!”, I realized how cute he was there with his grandpa, and that I could trust John’s dad to keep Ev safe, even to his own detriment. And so I snapped a picture. It could not have captured the moment better (other than me being able to actually work my new camera and the picture being clearer). There is my cute, sweet Evan having a ball with his grandpa while John and I drive away, with John’s mom’s house in the rearview mirror.